But I'm writing a blog. Showing off some adorable pictures and giving some thoughts for where I'm at right now.
I feel like I've lost my motivation. My motivation to clean, my motivation to keep up, get ahead of the game, I feel like I'm just making ends meet, and that is not where I'm usually at. I usually feel like I'm prepared for the next step, able to be super mom and then some. But these days, I just can't. I was thinking this morning, wondering what has changed. Is it because I am working more? The side responsibility of homework on top of that? Working out too much? (nope. that can't be it lately...). Is it because I've been sick? I can't really put my finger on it. I just feel like I don't have the motivation. I want nothing else to do but to go to sleep at 9pm. But I have bills to pay online, a checking account to catch up with, a husband to spend time with, a budget to write, ugh. I just go to sleep, because that list is just too long. I feel like I'm in uncharted territory that I haven't ever been in before. Just a phase, I'm sure of it. I have learned that Jake is capable of doing things on his own (yes women, men CAN and WILL do it... if you don't say anything about HOW to do it!), that I do require 8-9 hours of sleep at night to avoid getting tired during the day, and that working 40+ hours a week and managing a family is HARD work. The balls are always juggling. So maybe I should learn to buy paper plates, cups, and silverware, so that the dishes don't need to be done. Rewear my clothes until they stink... maybe not. Or just let my house get messy- Oh I already do that.
Ok, I think I'm done venting to my blog! But this is where I'm at. I usually don't verbalize, or write down things that I'm struggling with, but this time I felt like I should. No reason why, maybe I just wanted to get it out.
So you ask, enough about Nicole- How are the kids!? Well the kids are doing well. Getting over some viral things but well. Hunter is napping right now, and Abby is sitting in her bed playing with her blankie, obviously not napping, but happy to be in there... so there she will stay until she decides to sleep or scream! Abby turned 8 months since the last time I really blogged. She is a big big girl these days! She is crawling all over, walking next to furniture, and her latest thing is talking. Her first word was "Wow" But she also says "Uh Oh!" and "Dada" and "Papa". Smart girl! She hasn't quite realized what to do when her brother takes away toys, but the more he does it, the more I feel sorry for him when she knows how to get back at him! She does have her two teeth on the bottom and is working on the top two as well. They just haven't come through yet.
Hunter is doing really well. Guess what? He is potty trained! It took him a matter of what? One day? It was shocking to us really. We just decided the Saturday before Halloween to take away diapers during the day, just use underware. That morning he had 3 accidents, the rest of the day he was dry and using the toilet on his own. He now just tells us when he wants to use the potty and goes in himself. It is great to see him excited about his accomplishment of this.
So here are some of my favorite moments in the past couple of days:
When Hunter was on the couch waiting for his night time chocolate milk and I asked him if he wanted to cuddle with Mommy instead of Daddy (which is the usual routine), the smile on his face was priceless... he was so excited! Abby loved the switch up too...she fell asleep in Daddy's arms!
Hunter playing "Da Ditar" (That Guitar). I finally showed him my guitar and he now LOVES to play it!
Watching Abby dance to "Da Ditar"- she is a natural mover and shaker!
Cuddling with my husband. He is so wonderful :)
Having Abby say Dada for the first time was great! I'm working hard on that Mama now!
Thanks for reading... and enjoy the photos!
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